PARADOX

DEPTH

THIS IS YOUR INITIATION INTO

& POWER

A 7-month apprenticeship for women who are ready to descend, resurrect, and start ravishing the f*ck out of their life.

Applications launch to the waitlist on April 9th

NEXT COHORT: MAY – NOVEMBER 2026

“We must face the depth and darkness of our own soul. There is no becoming without healing and without a radical acceptance of one’s truth.” - Viola Davis

AND THAT’S EXACTLY THE KIND OF REVOLUTIONARY SHIT WE DO HERE.

I KNOW WHY YOU’RE HERE

You’ve literally done everything “right.” But the cost is too fucking high.

You are a wildly intelligent, deeply capable, cosmically alive human who’s learned how to collapse, mute, over-function, or disappear in order to be ‘successful’, maintain relationships, [insert a core identity here]. You played the game. You became impressive. reliable. contained. You could keep an entire village running even if you feel dead inside.

What you don’t know YET is how to stop abandoning parts of yourself to do it

You’re expanding and you have been for a while.

It hasn’t landed fully in your life yet. You feel it like a low growl under your ribs. It’s not loud enough to burn your life down but it’s loud enough that pretending not to hear it is impossible.

You’re ready to start living with your whole chest and soul but you feel like you need to destroy everything to do that. You don’t. Keep reading.

You learned how to live half truths with a smile.

Years of muting the inconvenient parts of yoursef––the messy, soft, weird, wild, creative. Trimming away your sharp edges and your intuition. Trading your wildness for belonging, instinct for approval, truth for safety. Overworking, overpleasing, overpolishing. And it worked really fucking well. Until it didn’t.

You’re hungry to descend.

For fucks sake you do not need another breakthrough.

You can’t think your way into aliveness.
You can’t optimize your way into freedom.

You need containment to hold you while you remember who you are, so you don’t panic and shrink back. Like the banks to a wild, raging river.

When you fragment yourself to survive a system, you end up recreating that system inside your own body — and the revolution begins when you stop doing that.

And that’s what we are here to do.

You’re still trying to resolve your complexity.

You’ve called it motivation and discipline but underneath it all is the tension between two truths like ambition and exhaustion, power and softness, control and surrender.

And instead of learning how to hold that tension, you’ve been trying to resolve it. Pick a side (the safer side) and that’s fucking exhausting.

THE APPRENTICESHIP MODEL

We are going to make your aliveness non-negotiable, your essence unshakeable, and your power unfuckwithable. Done in community. Contained by core teachings and provocations. Anchored in live workshops, immersive practice, and coaching. Culminating in an Opus –– something you birth from your depth and claim publicly as a living devotional to your depth. This is literally everything I have learned about descending into yourself to claw your way back to yourself –– designed to give you the time, support, and community to do the same. Resurrection requires repetition, proximity, witnesses. That’s what this is.

  • My favorite part of this apprenticeship.

    We gather. We listen for what’s rising. We work with what is present. What surfaces in one woman often unlocks something in ten others. Healing happens aloud, in community, the way it has for centuries.

    My approach is shaped by lineage — by Sicilian folk practices of communal healing, by my own ancestry, and by years of facilitating individual transformation in collective space.

    3 rules: Nothing is forced. Nothing is bypassed. What is ready will always reveal itself.

  • These are not lectures. They are live provocations, somatic experiences, and structured descent spaces designed to interrupt old patterns and build new capacity.

    Kinda like a workout for your mind, body, soul.

  • This is my collection of teachings, essays, audio riffs, and provocations on the patterns that run our lives from the subconscious: punishment, over-delivering, control, validation, power, devotion, desire, pleasure, and the ways we shrink our dreams into something “reasonable” so we don’t have to risk losing love or belonging.

    This will in our private space on Circle but it is not a course or a linear program. It is not a belief system or method for you to adopt. It is a body of work to you to keep returning to when an old pattern shows up in a new costume and you’re ready to see it clearly instead of repeating it again. Or when you need an anchor or words for what you feel but can’t explain.

  • The Paradox Playground is like a laboratory where you practice living inside complexity and contradiction without defaulting to collapse, control, or self-abandonment.

    Nothing here asks you to choose the “right” side of a paradox. This work is about becoming someone who can hold more truth, more tension, more responsibility for your own life — without hardening, muting, contorting, or disappearing.

  • Your Opus is the culmination of this apprenticeship.

    It’s something you create, claim, and make visible — born from the depth you’ve accessed over seven months. It may be a piece of writing, a manifesto on parenthood, a dance, a series of letters, a painting, a speech, something you knit, or whatever freaky shit you come up with. Point is, you will create something potent to honor your process and share it in our closing ceremony

  • Seven guest teachers will stretch our understanding of how we ‘heal’ through topics like hypnosis, breathwork, poetry, magnetism, family constellation, and dance.

    You will experience different edges, styles, and perspectives to help push you further into discomfort, joy, and expansion.

  • Where integration happens between calls.

    This is a living, breathing community of high-capacity women practicing honesty in real time. You will witness and be witnessed. You will bring your spirals, your breakthroughs, your questions, your contradictions.

  • You get direct access to me inside the container.

    Questions. Reflections. Pattern interruption. This is where you bring your mess and let it be worked in real time.

JOIN THE WAITLIST

ALLOW
SELF-STUDY  X  COACHING
+
ITERATE
DEVOTION THROUGH
PLAY, PROXIMITY, & PRACTICE
+
INTEGRATE
COMMUNITY  X SOMATICS & MOVEMENT

The change is subtle but ruthless.

You stop using your excellence and competence as armor. Stop controlling everything. You don’t give a shit if you’re agreeable, impressive, or too much. You actually rest (even if part of you panics). You say no without shaming yourself back into a yes. You listen to your actual desires and find ways to make them real. You catch yourself mid-overfunction. You never say ‘I’m fine’ again. AND when you do spiral, shut down, or snap (which you will, because you are a human fucking human) you won’t compound it with shame — you’ll recover, repair, and move on.

You will learn how to lead yourself through anything without losing yourself. This is deeply unsexy work that requires devotion and proximity to your own suffering as a source of alchemy. And we do it in community. We learn to ravish the fuck out of our lives, together.

AND THAT’S LIVING FROM THE KIND OF POWER ONLY FOUND IN THE DEEPEST KNOWING OF WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE.

THE DETAILS

Applications

Applications open April 9, 2026 to the waitlist only.

Investment

$4,200 USD $3,200 waitlist price

multiple payment plans available

Duration

7 months. We begin May 22 and end Nov 22, 2026

OKAY GET ME ON THE LIST RN

A self-initiation–in community–that will shift everything.

You won’t fix yourself ➝
you’ll befriend yourself

You won’t “align” ➝
you’ll integrate all parts of yourself (especially the parts you’ve hid or muted to say safe / belong.

You won’t avoid shame ➝
you’ll listen to it, hold it, work with it to gently loosen it's grip

You won’t clean up your mess ➝
you’ll learn to sit inside it, receive its intelligence, and create from it

You won’t regulate to “calm” ➝
you’ll alchemize pain, grief, rage, & sadness

You won’t ‘do the work’ ➝
you’ll play, write, move, talk, learn and think with your community to rewire yourself

You won’t “heal your past” ➝
you’ll integrate your lineage, your stories, and their shadows into wisdom

I don’t promise outcomes because real transformation doesn’t work that way. I promise conditions: time, proximity, practice, community, and descent. This is not optimization or self-improvement—it’s sustained contact with yourself. The work changes you because you stay in it long enough for your baseline to shift, and because you’re held in relationship instead of pushed toward a result. I also really fucking trust you and your instincts. This work is a grind. I will teach you how to make it feel playful, deep, wild, and weird but you’ve got to want it for yourself.

THE VIBE

THAT'S MY FUCKING VIBE

Hey I’m Giana

I spent 30 years dominating the sport of overachieving—CrossFit, corporate, people-pleasing, being the CEO of Controlling Literally Everything. I was impressive. I was competent. I was exhausted.

I had the gold stars, ‘success’, and checked all the boxes with virtually zero connection to myself.

I had to look at the parts of myself that made me shudder and sweat — the jealousy, the rage, the control, the need to be right, the fear of being ordinary, the grief I’d outperformed for decades. I had to stop trying to fix them and start apprenticing them. Inviting them to the table. Listening instead of managing.

Because if all I did was layer on perfume (more self-help, more productivity, more “optimizing”), I was still going to stink.

So I descended.

I apprenticed the parts of me I had hidden, muted, contorted, and exiled. I learned how to hold light and dark in the same body without flinching. I learned how to feel shame without collapsing. Rage without detonating. Desire without apologizing.

And what happened was truly fucking wild: The parts of me I thought would ruin my life became the source of my power.

These days, my old buttons are mostly broken. I didn’t transcend being human I literally just stopped abandoning myself when I get triggered. I still spiral. I still try to control. I still get scared.

BUT I KNOW HOW TO LEAD MYSELF THROUGH IT.

I no longer use my intelligence as armor.
I don’t use excellence as camouflage.
I don’t weaponize competence to avoid intimacy.
I don’t collapse into shame when I get messy.

I recover. I repair. I return.
over and over again.

I am not a guru. I really don’t have the answers. I am a woman who has walked herself through the underworld enough times to know the terrain. Who has sat in rooms of high-achieving women and watched their brilliance collapse under the weight of self-abandonment. Who has studied systems, shadow, lineage, nervous systems, and paradox — not to be interesting, but to actually survive myself.

This work isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about becoming someone you don’t have to spend all of your energy controlling.

And if you’re here, you probably know exactly what that costs — and what it’s worth.

HERE’S WHAT WORKING WITH ME FEELS LIKE

This is nervous-system-led, paradox-rooted initiation into the wholeness you’ve always had but never claimed.

We’ll make your darkest truths and hidden impulses your most powerful
co-consipirators.

Hecate.
Persephone.
Lilith.
Magdalene.

Our archetypal muses.
Descent. Devotion. Defiance.
Resurrection.