I’m tired of the culture around self-improvement. You aren’t a never ending fixer upper. You are a brilliant bundle of cosmic particles with enough intelligence in your left pinky toe to alter the universe AND YET I see you circling the same patterns for years and collapsing into the binaries that society has neatly laid out for us. You can’t fix or heal or transcend your way into experiencing the full power of your aliveness. You must descend and emerge again and again, be in relationship to all parts of your weird, wild, self and have enough support to make it become who you are not just something you do.

We work with your contradictions, your exiled parts, your rage, your grief, your desire — all the stuff you’ve been taught to hide — and we bring it into relationship with your everyday life. You learn to make decisions from that place, create from that place, and hold yourself from that place. I have lived this.

This work is not about “learning your shadows.”
It’s about using them.
Living from the center of your whole self. That means, denying the very seductive chance to mute yourself into the only the versions that the world rewards.

You will learn how to hold your duality without collapsing into the side that feels safer, more convenient, or more socially acceptable.
You will learn how to feel your grief, your rage, your desire, your longing — without losing yourself.
You will learn to co-conspire with your darkness instead of trying to kill it.

This isn’t self-improvement.
This is self-integration.
This is nervous-system-led, paradox-rooted initiation into wholeness.

The kind of work that actually changes your life — because it changes who is in the room inside of you.

This apprenticeship is for women who are no longer interested in quick insights or surface-level healing. You’ve already done work on yourself. You know your patterns. What you want now is something slower, more honest, and more demanding—work that actually changes how you live, relate, and choose over time.

Over seven months, we apprentice depth, paradox, and power together—not as concepts, but as capacities built through practice. This work happens at the level of the nervous system and in relationship, where real patterns are formed and reshaped. You’ll learn how to stay present under pressure, hold complexity without collapsing, and act with clarity without abandoning yourself or others.

This is a long-haul container by design. Transformation at this level requires time, repetition, and being seen. You’ll be held by structure, challenged by truth, and supported by a small community of women who are equally committed to showing up—not fixing, performing, or rushing the process, but doing the work.

At the end of the apprenticeship, you create an opus. Not a performance or a polished deliverable, but something real that wants to come into form after months of lived change. It may be creative, relational, professional, or deeply personal. The form doesn’t matter. What matters is that it’s embodied, honest, and rooted in who you’ve become.

This apprenticeship isn’t for everyone. It’s for women who are ready to invest—not just money, but attention, presence, and responsibility—into becoming someone who can hold more truth, more desire, and more life in community.

If you’re looking for a quick fix, you’ll be frustrated. If you’re looking for certainty, you’ll be